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MOTHER COURAGE

 

MAMA-KANGAROO 436

 

I’ve never had a baby, I’m still unmarried, but I do have experience with unwanted pregnancy.

I became pregnant and had an appointment with a doctor to see when and how I could have an abortion. When the time came, after drinking gallons of water for the last ultrasound examination, no one told me what might happen. Not a single doctor warned me about what could happen. And this is what did happen:

I was given anaesthesia. After waking up, the doctor on duty (a female doctor) cynically laughed and said “There it is, in the garbage, so pay attention next time!!!!!!!!!!!”. I wanted to die that very second and I was feeling terribly guilty. No matter how wrong that boy might have been for me, I shouldn’t have done that. I felt remorse and no matter how hard I tried to hide the pregnancy and this whole situation from my parents, I couldn’t hide the tears, especially not from my mother. I became so depressed that I simply couldn’t get out of that circle of guilt. This whole agony didn’t last for more than a week when I woke up with an incredibly strong, shooting pain in the abdomen. I called my friend to come immediately and explained that I felt sick, really sick. When she came, without saying a word to me she called an ambulance and literally said, “Please send your team, my friend has abdominal pain so strong that she can’t stand straight, she is pulling her hair out, please hurry!” The voice on the other side asked, “How old is she?” – “26!!!” The same voice replied, “Come on! We do not respond to foolishness. She might have eaten something. Or maybe it’s just her PMS…” and hung up.

My friend called a taxi, which arrived in less than 5 minutes. She put a jacket around my shoulders and we went to the hospital. During the admission she explained that I had had an abortion a week before and I was urgently sent to the examination room. A doctor inserted two fingers and the rivers of blood started running. I was immediately transferred to the surgery. I was given infusion and a local anaesthetic. They said that there was one foetus left, which they hadn’t previously seen. Fortunately, the mentioned doctor wasn’t present. Otherwise, even though I was completely exhausted and even though it was difficult to breathe let alone do anything else, I’m sure I would have killed her. I spent about 20 days in the hospital in Nis. I was treated like a murderer. A girl, that is, a woman of my age had a delivery in the fifth month of her pregnancy and they inserted an enormous needle (for horses probably) in her belly in front of all of us in the room. I remember phoning my mother and crying. The nurse on duty addressed me sharply, saying “Now you’re calling your mother? And why didn’t you call her when you f*** that boyfriend of yours???” 

Believe me, I wanted to die. I will never hide anything from my mother. The worst truth is far better than any lie. I have no better friends than my mother and my friend, off course, who saved my life.

Maybe certain mothers will resent me for having to have an abortion. I’m asking for your understanding.

 

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